welcome to my twisted world...

people always say that "life is short so live it well..." at first, you would want to believe but shit happens and you knew that life will never be the same... maybe it's my perspective but i always thought that after the rain, there's always a rainbow but lately, all i've been experiencing are the "rains" and even "storms" at times...

but then again...

these things are what made me who i am today, a strong person... and somehow, i could still stand firm and manage to tell everybody that " I CAN..." at the end of the day, i know i could still find my way home...

i have long accepted the fact that when your professional life moves in, your social life goes flying out of the window... with a twist! but i still can't believe it could turn out this bad... hell! am going nuts already... it's like am dragging the days so it'll be over and come weekend when i could be with my "twisted other half" but then again, it's like some routine where you would just spend time with him and do the same things over and over... its so pathetic already... and as for my "so called bestfriend" who went out last Saturday night without even a "short notice" since all night i've been kinda pestered by "his" monster... but then again,
he chose to be in other people's company, so be it... life... full of drudgery...

i've no excuse for this long ignored update but nonetheless i still wanna make it up... i just celebrated my birthday and my "first half" really tried his best to make it extra special... i don't exactly know how he figured it out that i have a thing for flowers... not that am the type who'd go mushy over flowers but i guess being in a two-year relationship with him made things so tedious already and popping out infront of our office with a bunch of flowers in my favorite color really counts for me... i've been telling him that im kinda enjoying the OPM scene right now and there he was, with the cd of Nina in his other hand...and a lot of unexpected surprises followed...
i can't seem to justify to myself why he's being romantic, or so i may say, "too romantic" to me this past few days... maybe, he got to realize my value or he might be feeling a little insecure of all the guys, specially some of my ex's who's been making pacute recently... i don't know how you would call or maybe there really is a time of the year where, all of a sudden, your past boyfriends have been making contacts again... im unoffially calling it "THE EX-BOYFRIEND MAKING CONTACT TIME OF THE YEAR"hehehe... *LOL that may be the reason why he's being all sappy and mushy over me celebrating my birthday and making it really special, inclusive of the "performance of the year level" kind of thing...*wink

Or maybe...
he has finally come to his senses and started to give more value our relationship... too afraid to say it out loud and so he's just showing it tru his acts... pity him, after two years of being in a relationship, he's still so clueless on how to go around making me feel special but i guess he got on his target perfectly coz he surely made my ryes brim with tears... hehehe...drama queen...*wink

ciao!