welcome to my twisted world...

Yet another week, and yet another pitiful excuse for a long-ignored update. To make a rather long and undoubtedly boring story short, I've been feeling depressed again... Though there are times which you can choose when you wanna feel depressed and all that, this time, however, is not by my own choice, which is upsetting, but I suppose one really can never know what is going on in someone else's head... last night, i was really feeling down, like am kinda getting a flu or something then i asked my "first half" to call me since earlier, he almost ruined my day by calling me someone else's name... (as in, terms of endearment) he then reaches his destination, i was asking him if he's still gonna call, he said yes then i waited and waited and waited but the phone never made a sound... i was like worried already and it took him almost forever before answering my text with a sorry but the store where i used to called is already closed... just like that... like no effort of making me feel as if he was really sorry he won't be able to call me... he added, i'll just text you tomorrow... i was like, hey, its your off tomorrow?! then he said... yeah i remeber, sorry can't do anything about it, gotta go home now... just like that, no goodnight, no i love you, no nothing.... he went home, JUST LIKE THAT! goddammit!!! it was like a silent blow on the pit of my stomach... i felt like shouting but no voice came out from my mouth, instead i felt a stream of tears flowing down my face... i was so mad at him... just the other day i was like being so proud of him and now this is what he's gonna do to me?! i so love to commit suicide right now...

if you can't judge a book by its cover, by what can you? Naturally, I'm not talking about books here. I'm talking about men. i actually can't figure it out, even up to now, why men, in nature and generally speaking, can be so naive and insensitive?!

don't know what else i could do here....

and my "second half" was like thousand of miles away from me... shit! this has got to stop!

ciao!

drama queen!!! lolz...wag ka nga maginarte dalawa naman syota mo eh...ayus lang yun!!! hehe love u bes!  

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